i keep forgetting

now that sky is staying home full time with the wee one, i sometimes forget what hard work it is to be a stay at home parent. all i focus on is that I work (full time), I go to school (four days a week), and then come home, to play with the kid and give sky a break from hanging with a toddler so he can do things like play video games. i catch myself wanting so badly to sleep-in every morning, that i say things like "you do nothing all day..." or "why can't you nap when he naps so i can sleep in?"

yes, i realize how terrible, horrible, mean this is...and how untrue. when i stayed home (granted i still had school), i would complain that i needed a break because staying home IS hard work. it is WORK! but how quickly it becomes a competition to see who gets to sleep later.

i appreciate more now then ever what a hard job being a parent it. its a job and on top of it, sky tends to the laundry, vacuuming, dishes, almost daily. i don't think i've done house work since his summer started. but why do i feel like i'm the one who is busy? he spends his day at parks, shopping, playing. i get the other side now (traditionally the father's point-of-view)...but i feel a terrible guilt for feeling it. i just want five minutes to myself. a day to do nothing...no school work, no work work, not toddler work. i want a day for me. but i'm sure sky wants the same thing....i say this as he plays a video game in the other room...but here is sit blogging....